Hi all--
Re-examining my Scannerness for the second time in life. I'm really trying to convince myself that it's okay to be this way, simply because I can't take any more nervous breakdowns and beating myself up for having no body of work. (Yes, I know what RTC says about this - I'm trying to digest, it's just taking a while. I don't believe it yet.)
One good thing: I realized I am a Serial Master. My cycle is roughly: Discover, Research completely, Try, Review, Master, Move on. Sometimes there's a Teach component as well. Depends on the other people involved and the subject.
I like researching meticulously, setting up processes and procedures, getting systems in motion, then letting them spin while I move onto something else.
Mostly I think I'd make a great consultant at... well, any number of things I've mastered.
But how do you get to be a consultant at something you appear to all the outside world to have no (or not much) experience at? How can you market yourself successfully without being considered a laughing stock? Have I got the wrong approach here?
Another concern: I get a new interest and usually I'm quite good compared to people who are already doing it, just because I'm sharp and a researcher and a REALLY hard worker when things hold my interest. But I always feel like I have to appease / get training from / play nice with more established people in the field... even when, in many cases, I KNOW I'm more talented at the craft in question than they are.
I get fed up with playing second fiddle just because I haven't been around as long. I wish I could wire them directly into my brain and say, "See! Look at my ideas, what I want to do, how I have it all planned out! I'm so much more well-researched and prepared than you are! I am your equal, not the new kid on the block!" I get so frustrated I just quit.
Ugh. Thoughts?