Hi. I'm phoenix and I've known I was a scanner for four days.
I haven't got the book yet (I'm waiting for my hold to come in the library - any day now!) but I've been learning all I can about scanners from the web.
It probably says a lot about me that I first discovered scanners last week when I was researching who else is a recovering perfectionist. Before that, I had no idea these type of people existed - even though I'm one of them!
Everything I think about my life makes sense now under the scanner umbrella. Thinking about having one job for the rest of my life has always filled me with dread. Whenever I think that I might be somewhere for a while, at some point I get this trapped feeling and want to run away. Today I was driving around the city (I live in Chicago), aching to get out and go somewhere else, aching to be on the road, see new places, travel. But unfortunately because of money, I have never been out of this country (even though I have a passport).
I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I enjoy singing, art, playing the piano, learning languages, linguistics, astronomy, biology, occasionally math, reading, being outdoors, badminton, softball... I have considered pursuing many jobs, including music therapist, writer, astronomer, college professor, linguistics researcher, teacher, childcare provider, and even ballerina (though admittedly not since I was a kid

). I have often wished - since becoming an adult - that I was a kid again, so I wouldn't have all this responsibility and could just pursue whatever I wanted.
Right now I'm between jobs. I've graduated college with a BA and I'm completing my first year of grad school (different school, different subject), but already I don't know if this is what I want even though I've enjoyed being here. I can't wait to get the book because I hope it would give me some answers about what to do, but I don't know.
Any suggestions or advice is appreciated.
